As Fi Bows to Peer Pressure

The trick with studying is to not procrastinate. Unfortunately that’s exactly what I’m doing! I should be:
1) Printing my book review to take to uni
2) Ironing my work clothes for tonight’s Pink Floyd Experience
3) Sorting out campaign stuff (there’s my calendar waiting in my inbox) (it’s a lot bigger task than those four words make it out to be)
4) Writing research proposals (I meant to have them all done today!)
5) Contacting some 325 organisations in the UK about my development research.
6) Finding time to sleep
7) Parliament stuff . . .
Creating a timetable to do all of this in
9) Planning how to get to Palmy next weekend and Dunedin towards the end of June
10) Starting my research
11) Writing 30,000 words before the end of June

Actually writing it down has been good, makes me realise it’s really not that much. I do so hope the election is announced soon, it will all be a lot easier when I know the date I’m working towards. I’m speaking at Wellington College next Friday in a forum thingy, then doing a radio interview with some girls from Welly Girls at some stage too. I enjoy being a candidate and I’ve started to realise that I might thoroughly enjoy being an MP. Not because of the benefits but because I’ve discovered they all do an amazing job and it’s one I’d really like to do one day too. Who would have thought!?!?

Uni study is hard, I’m not giving it enough time and I need to put my head down and put some 600 scandinavian politicians into a spreadsheet and email the UK a lot. Which brings me to my next point, only tangentially related . . .

It’s nearly a year since Vienna and I miss everyone a lot. VIMUN was a crazy time, with crazy people, many of whom have left a lasting ‘imprint on my life’ (how cheesy does that sound). But seriously . . . I have had emails from a few that are going back this year and I really do wish I was going there too. God definitely taught me a lot at VIMUN 2004 and I know those are experiences that are unlikely to ever happen again. You guys know who you are, I miss you heaps! Actually a lot has changed in a year, I’ve only just realised that it’s a year since Adam went to America (well really close to) and since . . . well everything . . . weird!!!! A lot has changed in a year, and yet I wouldn’t swap it for anything . . . Dave, you’re incredible!!

Rose, Lisa and Rachel - I don’t need to mention you, caus you know you’re a fabulous group. Rose don’t study too hard, good luck for your exams on Thursday and know that we’re all praying for you!

I’ve been thinking about my previous posts, and realising that no one is ever confident 100% of the time. I often wish I was but then I’d probably be a horrible person if I was, and entirely un-human.

This really has become a rant and a rave, possibly an insane one. It is definitely time I got on with activities . . .

I’m lacking confidence right now. I’m not confident in myself as a candidate, as a student, as a leader . . . it’s a passing phase but it’s downright annoying. I am who I am because God made me that way and it is through Him that I have confidence but very occasionally it disappears and I am left wondering why anyone ever bothers with me . . .

And with that sadly depressing point, I will write a much happier post about something different . . . I know I am worth more, and yet I struggle to see it sometimes . . .

I’m juggling but have started to get the feeling that I’m dropping balls . . .