Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Moving On

It’s time for me to move on . . .

I couldn’t stand blog.com anymore and while I am very sad to be leaving my lovely onceuponatime blog, I need more integration, features and compatability. WordPress seemed the way forward (for someone who wants it to be super easy as well).

So here’s what I’ve done - I’ve moved across all the relevant posts from 2009 and the last one from 2008, for those playing catchup, and then I’ve added a couple of new posts about the emotional prep for adventuring with VSO.

It’s time to remove this blog from your links, RSS feeds and bookmarks and add:

Adventuring with Fi

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Friday, March 20, 2009

Great Heart

The title comes from Johnny Clegg’s song of the same name - it’s what I’m listening to.

Tonight is my last in London, indeed in the UK, for a month. A whole month. I was panicked this afternoon - so much to get done, so little time - but the panic has faded as I realise something much more important. I have a world, a family, a life here now and if the time has done anything it’s provided space to develop some amazing relationships with very special people.

I’ve given up on packing. I’ll throw the last few bits in the case tomorrow morning. I have trackies for the plane, and books and my Aquabeat (not that I plan to need its waterproof abilities) to keep me occupied. I have a new data entry person - Rose Stainer funnily enough - to train up tomorrow morning and then I’ll take one last look at my lovely little flat (to pick up my luggage) before heading out to Heathrow.

Tomorrow I fly to my other home, to the place where older friends and family are, and the emotion attached to that is incredibly powerful at times and almost overwhelming.

Tonight though, I have sleep and dreams - of wonderful people, some new friends, some older friends, and moments of pure joy outside Russell Square tube station on a Thursday night.
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Tuesday, March 17, 2009

VSO catch-up - Part 1


[Written 02-03-09]

I’ve spent the last hour or so working on my CV for VSO and it’s been so weird. Cherry-picking the appropriate bits for specific job applications is hard enough but cherry-picking for a non-specific placement overseas is a nightmare and as I have experience in some very weird areas for your average 24 year-old trying to work out what bits to go with is driving me slowly bananas. 

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Sunday, March 15, 2009

Pain

[17-03-09 Written on Sunday - much better now]

I’m in a wee bit of pain this evening, and was going to spend the next 15mins ranting about it, but I have this idea it might get a boring. Imagine me going “pain . . . hurts . . . whine whine . . . pain . . . hurts . . . whine whine” - you get the gist. I fell down three times today - once is fairly common with my joints as they are but three times tends to shock them into pain. Lovely.

Tonight’s choice was writing about it, finding a piano to smack annoyance out on (unattainable), or going to bed annoyed. I went with writing

Dealing with this while adventuring around the developing world will be fun but fine, I’m an expert in strapping with whatever I have to hand and have pain meds to keep me from letting out small shrieks every time I put my foot down on the ground when needed.

Pain . . . hurts . . . whine whine . . . bed.
 
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Thursday, March 12, 2009

VSO

News News News…

I’m in a really good mood and therefore in the right frame of mind for revealing the big news of my year.

Some of you may remember my big Christmas email update, where I revealed I’d applied to spend a year volunteering with VSO. I wrote:

“Voluntary Service Overseas (VSO) is the world’s leading independent, international development charity that works through volunteers to fight poverty in developing countries. I have applied for their Youth for Development scheme for 2009/10 and am now looking forward to attending an assessment day in early 2009. This scheme would see me leaving London for a year to work in a developing country in a job that uses my current skills and experience, and interest in participation and governance hopefully. All major costs are covered, with a small monthly stipend, and in return we fundraise for VSO prior to leaving. It’s the experience of a lifetime for me and I’m excited to have made it through all the preliminary stages.”

In February 2009 I attended an assessment day at the VSO offices in Putney, which led to Tweets like this (and here). I waited a week and a half and found out on Friday 20th February that I’d been selected. 

Having finally got myself sorted with my current employers, I can now be a little more public about this.

Sometime this Summer (the northern hemisphere one) I’ll be leaving the UK to do who knows what, who knows where with who knows who. It’s a lesson in so many things (patience and trust to start with) and both scary and so very exciting. For anyone who knows me fairly well, you’re well aware that this is something I’ve wanted to do for a very long time. I am over the moon.

VSO are being amazing and provide lots of training. My first training weekend (Preparing to Volunteer or P2V) happens two weekends after I get back from New Zealand (the first weekend of May). Meanwhile I’m preparing my CV for their database and sorting out medicals and dental visits and it’s madness and brilliant at the same time.

This blog is going to change over the coming months. I refuse to give up my “onceuponatime.blog.com” address, having had it going for over 4 years, and so the blog will become Once Upon a Time in [insert country here]. I really hope you continue to read my ramblings as I blog the highs and lows of a first time volunteer.

Watch this space - I have plenty of posts saved up over the last month on this adventure and I’ll be slowly posting them over the coming few days.

 
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Sunday, March 8, 2009

What Jesus Did Do (money and potatoes)

Thanks to Kat McBeath for this post - I think she’s onto a winner and wanted others to get a chance to read this too.


I’m 25. The whole time, I’ve never honestly been able to figure out what the big deal about the whole Jesus Thing is; no, I mean specifically the dying_on_the_cross part. I mean; he died, so what? You can say your sensible arithmetic statements about how ‘he paid for our sins’, but I thought it was money and potatoes that pay for stuff. If the wages of sin is death, who pays them to you? And since when was sin work? It’s all abstract, and I don’t know how to connect it to something as real as a nail sticking out of a foot. 
There are a million ways to explain that we can’t go_to_heaven_when_we_die because we have dumped God, and I’m more than satisfied with them; I just don’t see how the God-clone’s suicide helps that at all. 

My BRAIN woke me UP at 4am to tell me about this stuff and I was, like, so not impressed; I went back to sleep at 7am and woke at 11.30, and Garbett told me I was lazy. 

Anyway: Jesus was payment_for_sins to people who were used to trying to pay for their sins. The people in the olden days [well until, like, 50 years ago] were more worried about sin and heaven than we seem to be today; they avoided sin, or at least didn’t complain about the consequences. Hell, they even thought everything bad that happened was punishment from God. What they took from Jesus was that they could never pay, and that they didn’t need to.

We don’t pay for our sins anymore. We live with them. We work through them, and we work round them. We’ve (almost) solved our sin with safe sex and responsible drinking. It’s about damage control, birth control and designated drivers. And the gap between all that and our dreams is what the TV shows and tabloids are all about.
So we lower our expectations. We accept our hangovers and divorces. We vaccinate our daughters against STDs. We put up with it till we’re rich and famous, and then we get depressed about it.
And we quarantine the proper sinners in prisons.

Indeed, we are familiar with our sin. We have these ideals of happiness and a sense of how good life can be, but we also have this frustration that our I-want-it-now’s undermine these ideals. 
For example, the pleasures of gambling, alcohol and fat/sugar don’t justify their destruction of lives. Till recently, school canteens were banned from selling pies. 
We say lust is fine as long as it’s controlled, but for some reason we think public nudity should be illegal. 
Everybody knows that drugs and pornography cheapen joy.
And do you know that forty years ago, they were laughing at the church for condemning smoking? Ha ha. 
Yet we do trust human will enough for it to be the difference between miscarriage and an abortion; one is a tragedy, and the other a right. 
Oh, and I still haven’t found prostitution at the Career’s Expo. 

What is Jesus to these people; to us? Is he payment for sins? Does He have a different face to us? 
He certainly doesn’t solve sin in a very practical sense. He told us that we’ve probably sinned even before we’ve gotten out of the shower each morning. He told us don’t even think about escaping bad stuff. The universe is disintegrating. He said ‘If I go to Jerusalem they’ll kill me’. And he went to Jerusalem and they killed him. 
He said don’t even think about trying to be good enough to get to heaven; that just makes everything worse and whitewashed. 

It’s disgustingly simple. The whole Jesus-thing was God going, “Ok, so I hear you; life sucks and I should be rescuing you RIGHT NOW. Well, if I did that I’ll completely ruin the meaning of life. So I’m not going to. Tell you what: I’ll join in. [Emphasis added]. The president is coming to ground zero to get shot at and yelled at and sleep-deprived and killed and hold babies dying of contagious diseases in his arms . He incites us to blasphemy and murder, and promptly bounces back, saying “So what? Pain and death; whoop-dee-dee. You’ll have forgotten all about it in three million years.” He inspires us to live righteously and take what comes to us. And you’ll see in the end that all the bad stuff dies out and the only stuff left is all the God-components of life, all the stuff you have loved with a pure heart, all the magical moments of your favourite songs strung together.


I mean hey, you don’t want life to be perfect right now; that would make it heaven. And why have heaven now?-you can’t make it any longer by going there sooner. This is eternity we’re talking about. Live a life first. Then you’ll at least have something to talk about. And you’ll have developed Character!-oh how delightfully cheesy is that?

Jesus showed us how to live life; how life is meant to work. You find it by dying to yourself; by laying down your life for others; by not hating or lusting or being selfish. He is your opportunity to live with a foolhardy, reckless disregard for every world except the immortal one. To stop chasing your own wants and start chasing your Creator’s desires-and hey, His desires INCLUDE your good. This is your Creator we’re talking about.

What does Jesus have to say to us? That He has a better life for us to live. That’s the whole ‘Follow Jesus’ buzz. What Jesus Would Do. 

And then some reporter got hold of the Jesus Thing and made it into a fairytale/rescue/drama/script with an ending. HeLLO-it hasn’t ended. Go thee turn off thy computer and find your ending

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Saturday, February 14, 2009

NZ Music on Grey’s Anatomy

Proud to say that Liam Finn’s ‘Gather to the Chapel’ features on Season 5 Episode 15 of Grey’s Anatomy for the ‘in chapel’ scene.

Liam Finn is, of course, Neil Finn’s (of Split Enz and Crowded House fame) son and one of the complete legends who call NZ home. He was the frontman for Betchadupa (those were the days) and released his solo album in 2007. My lovely parents bought me the album, knowing how much I love random NZ music and it’s been one of my favs ever since. Major props to Liam for getting the song onto such a hit show’s soundtrack in what is going to be a killer episode - I’ll say no more about that.

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Friday, February 13, 2009

renewed respect for the c of e


It’s Friday afternoon and I have accomplished everything I set out to do today. I have discovered, working in my current job, that I am an overly efficient person who needs quite a few things on the go at once. While this sounds like a good thing, in reality it’s annoying as I am often close to the end of my list of tasks with little incentive to finish the list as new tasks rarely come my way. I do want to have something to do tomorrow even if it only gets me an hour into the day.

 

Anyway . . . this week has been quite an adventure for a variety of reasons. I know I’ve already posted Peter Ould’s post on this but here’s my thoughts.

I’ve been twittering from Synod for my ever-increasing band of followers who were interested in the discussions going on. It started as a few random messages, assuming of course that no one was interested (I have no pretences – most of what I write is for myself, I assume no one will be interested in the things I have to say). Others did the same and soon we had the discussion going linked to above. It was organic, very grass-roots with a wide range of participants, and was a totally awesome to be part of it all.

 

Through twitter and the synod discussions, I ended up joining a group of Christians praying for
London last night on the steps of St Martins which was really challenging and exciting.

 

Working for an institution like the Church of England brings challenges and it is easy to forget that this whole thing is based on an organic, grass-roots movement started by JC many years ago. I think I’ve found a new sense of respect for this organisation. Getting caught up in the details is my job but beyond that there’s a lot more to this place…

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Thursday, February 12, 2009

Synod goes Web 2.0

I would have written a similar post but Peter Ould has done such a brilliant job that I’ll copy-paste his blog on what I’ve been involved in for the last few days. It’s been fascinating to see the Church of England evolve out into some new methods of communication during General Synod.

Peter Ould on February 12th, 2009
Church of England Technology

One of the remarkable things at General Synod yesterday was the amount of internet activity going on. In particular, I was intrigued how during the day there was an amazing amount of social networking going on which was operating entirely independent of any attempt by Church House to control the electronic media.

Web 2.0 is the name given to new developments in internet software and culture, focussed on interactivity. Roughly put, whenever I write a blog post I’m operating in a Web 1.0 kinda way, but the fact that you can comment and we can interact through that makes this blog kinda Web 2.0. In particular, modern tools for social networking are really, really Web 2.0 and there was loads of that going on yesterday.

Take one example right here. There are currently (as in right this second) several members of General Synod and those watching in the public and press galleries,twittering about what is going on. Twitter allows you to post comments on anything and then to respond to other people’s comments. Its a form of micro-blogging and since Monday there has been a community of twitterers developing around Church House, both Synod members, Staff members, press and those not at Synod but commenting on what is going on. As the tweeting goes on, the community develops so that, for example, people are now including “#synod” in their messages to make sure anybody searching for “synod” picks up their comment. And trust me, there are LOADS of people doing it.

Or take the example of a facebook conversation yesteday between Bishop Pete Broadbent and Dave Walker, public and available for all to see (and comment on). Fascinating stuff, and by all accounts Pete B was chatting while sat in the chamber itself. On top of that there were the usual blogging suspects (including yours truly) linking to the best bits of eveybody else, and in doing so helping to guide people around what was going on.

What does this all mean? Well, I think one of the benefits of this is the sharing of information, the fact that the internet means that you can’t contain a story if you want to. While the press office might want to put a particular spin on a story, social networking means that before they’ve even got a party line sorted out the movers and shakers already have an opinion and interpretation that’s been sifted through several different people for analysis. The internet lets us share information and in doing so helps to move towards the truth.

The other benefit is that it enhances personal relationships in that it allows them to be continued even when you are not physically present with someone (and vice-versa). So for example, I might have a conversation in the press room withsomeone, that person then leaves, but tweets about an aspect of what we’ve been discussing, and I leave a message in return on their facebook wall. The result is that the next time we physically meet the conversation (and relationship) has progressed. It means  that despite the fact that I’m not at Synod today, I’m still interacting with those who I was networking with yesterday.

And thirdly, there is a remarkable amount of communication across the theological and ecclesiological divides. You can’t tell on twitter where someone is theologically, so once you’ve had a conversation online with them and established the rudiments of friendship, it’s very hard to then meet them in the flesh and decide that since they actually want to rip the creeds up and start again that that means you’ll therefore stop talking to them. Social interaction (as opposed to theological debate) over the internet helps to keep the church together because it fosters primarily relationship rather than position defending. It’s hard in 120 characters to outline the reasons why you think someone’s theology is a pile of pants, but it’s really easy to tell them that what they just said was hilarious (and that you agree that singing in Synod is not advised outside of worship sessions).

Social networking is transforming modern life and in particular the life of the church. It’s ultimately about relationships and sharing experiences, and if the church can suss out how to use the tools available it can only help to strengthen, not damage community.

Update 17:00 - The word on the street is that Bishop Pete Broadbent might just be the first member of General Synod to sign up to twitter while actually sitting in the House!!!! Are mobile phones useful or what?

Update 17:25- A tweeted reply from his Grace confirms the above. He did sign up, on his phone, while sat in session. We are truly in the presence of greatness!

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Tuesday, February 3, 2009

A Winter Wonderland

I’ve added the bold bits for effect - today was very much a special day though!

London’s day of innocence
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